I just started photography three or four years ago and it turned out to be my passion. I cannot even imagine how my life would be without photography; it has become a part of me. I truly identify myself with my job. During these years I have learned a lot and I have grown so much, not only as photographer, but also as a person. I am still enjoying this process like a rollercoaster ride. I don’t know where I am heading to but I have faith it will be an amazing journey.
So how did I fell in love with photography?
I actually started when a friend of mine asked me to shoot her wedding, at that time I was not really skilled yet. For example I still used manual mode when taking pictures. I too wanted to make great pictures like all other professional wedding photographers with all these dreamy and creamy tones on the images. So I told myself to learn as much as possible before the wedding day. I asked my Dutch course friend to be the model and used my very first camera (Nikon D3100 and the 35 lens). I experimented with this set a lot. Photography soon became my hobby.
These were my very first shots. I really had a lot to learn haha..
How was the journey?
The first year was all excitement. Trying out different stuff before the shoot like experimenting with photoshop, learning how to retouch and messing around with the flash and lighting. Everything was cool and reactions were positive (I guess they just didn’t want to hurt my feelings) until I saw the work of other photographers which was like 1000x better than mine and got more likes and comments on Facebook. Then I became very skeptical about my work and its quality. I wanted to send my work but probably they would laugh at me. I asked my family again if I am good enough and the only thing they could say is “ Yeah, you are awesome. you are the best photographer I know” but those people have no idea what photography is and I could not really learn anything from that. It actually resulted in feeling lost and negativity towards my own work.
After a couple of months taking pictures, I started to make some improvements on my work
How did I cope with negativity?
Till two years ago I was too keen towards the approval from others and stuck in jealously. I realised that I became demotivated. I did not know what to do and was constantly haunted by the idea that people don’t take me seriously and that I wasn’t good enough. Creativity was at an all time low and I actually stopped taking pictures. I almost lost my passion but somehow deep down my dreams were still there. Taking pictures that would go viral, being published in the big fashion magazines, getting major photography job with substantial budget, travelling while doing my job, giving photography workshops, inspire other people and teaching the art of photography to unfortunate kids in the developing countries. It all seemed just so far away when you are at your lowest point.
My second year doing photography, I started developing my style here before I fell into the negativity breakdown.
What brings me up?
I decided to switch my focus from this filthy depressive mindset filled with negativity and jealously into something more positive and productive. I read the book called “the secret”. A book I’ve actually read a couple of years ago but I didn’t really get the message. So this time I was trying to understand and use all of its ideas. This book is about controlling your mind and how to keep being positive no matter how bad the situation is. It’s all about your perception of a certain emotion or situation (I am starting to become a philosopher here :p)
But anyway, after reading this book and really trying to change my mindset. It became easier for me to put aside the negative thoughts and jealously. I no longer see other photographers as competition but I see them, as people who are just like me, hard workers fighting towards realising their passion and dreams. I felt more at peace with the situation and the flow of ideas and creativity surged through me again. Slowly all the good things started creeping in. I started to gain amazing followers on Instagram who love my work, I got more publications, I got more assignments (no big ones but you have to start somewhere right), travelling more (I travelled to 6 different countries this year), I am planning to give photography workshops in countries like Asia or Africa and share my passion there. I still have a bunch of other dreams I want to achieve. I just cannot wait for the great things that will be crossing me on this path and I truly believe that my journey will be more and more exciting.
These are my recent work and I am just so happy with I have achieved so far